I want to start this post by saying thank you to those that read my blog. I've had over 400 views and you can't imagine how good that makes me feel. I will try and post things that are interesting/entertaining to read.
It's been a crazy couple of months. Holidays are fun and difficult all at the same time. Right before Christmas Eve, Tim came to me in a dream. I figured I would dream of him all the time after he passed, but not so. This I think was a gift to me for Christmas, because Christmas Eve Day was always for just the two of us. All of our kids were gone that night to the exes, so we always had a special dinner and got ready for the kids to come the next morning. The dream was simply having him lying next to me. I was massaging his face as I usually did to make him feel better or to lower his stress, or to as he used to say, paralyze him. I could actually feel his whiskers and the little mole on his cheek that he would always cut himself shaving on. It was so sweet and intimate and it was a gift to me to feel like he was there. Of course the realization when I wake up and he's not actually there was a tough moment and translated into a tough day. But the evening turned around to an appreciation of his having been there but at the same time the beginning of friends and family and the celebration of Christmas.
And now it's 2011. Time for resolutions and new starts. I have the same resolution to lose the 20 or so lbs I resolve to lose every year. I am registered for a 7K race in March which is truly Tim's spirit. I'll be speed walking it, but it is a race and I kind of laugh every time I think about being in a race since I've not been in competetive sports ever in my life. (See the Clumsy post a while back.) I am looking forward now. The memories burned in my mind and my memory are my comfort and my inspiration. Who knows what I will do or accomplish this year. It's a continued passion to continue to think outside the box and be open to where life will go this year and to help other women realize their potential.
So, Happy New Year everybody. Resolve to make this a banner year, make it your best and don't be limited by the box you think is there.
