Valentine's Day

So . . . it's Valentine's Day.  St. Valentine, the patron saint of Hallmark-land.  I have seen commercials abounding reminding everyone that if they have someone important to them they must buy them something.  Something either red or sparkling apparently.  Yes, I admit there is an element of surliness or sarcasm related to Valentine's Day for me.  When my late husband was still with me, we never really made a big deal about Valentine's day, but I think the sentiment that went along with the so-called holiday was there and we felt good about making up our own celebration at home.  

The thing that caused me to be the queen of sarcasm today was the over-commercialization of it.  All day I got emails declaring the day, I think even the place I get my pet food had a Valentine's Day message!  Do I now need to get my dog a special Valentine's Day gift???  If I don't bring her something is she going to stomp away and not pay attention to me for the evening?  I thought I saw the signs of her extra droopy sad face when I came home, but I didn't think she was so sensitive.  My cat is giving me dirty looks, but that's not out of the ordinary, I don't think it's related to the day. 

As I was driving home, I was feeling a little sorry for myself, I'll admit.  It seems like everybody else has a special person to spend this time with tonight.  I know this is not true, but I did say I was feeling sorry for myself!  I told Tim how much I missed him and apologized for pouting.  I wanted to slap myself for being so ridiculous, so I turned my radio on to listen to music.  All my choices were either love songs or just plain bad music.  I swore at my radio, telling it to stop taunting me!! I have satellite radio and I turned it to a comedy station.  I listened to this comedian, and I don't know his name to give him credit.  It was a clip from the end of a comedy performance and he was trying to get a picture of an eagle for his kids.  This is ironic  because the eagle has always been symbolic to our whole family of Tim.  A large cloud came over and he thought that the eagle would go way, not wanting to brave the cold winds coming with the weather brought by the clouds.  But as he watched the gliding eagle positioned itself to go into the winds and they blew hard, but caused the eagle to glide even higher.  He said the message was clear, take the winds that blow against you and use them to lift you higher.  He then strummed his guitar and said, "this is what the eagle said to me" and as he played guitar he made loud screeching noises like an eagle.  I laughed out loud and thanked Tim for his message.  Take whatever feelings of adversity that I feel now and use it to make me stronger.  I'm a little stronger now just thinking of the message.